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Wednesday, February 23 2005


My fingers are all dry. Especially around the cuticles. I have OCD, or ADD, or whatever they diagnose kids with these days, and even though I’ve never been diagnosed by anyone outside of my siblings, who both happen to be in medical professions, I know this is true. As I sit and stare at my fingers, trying hard not to pick off all the dead cells, I see living proof of my “habit”.

I can’t stop picking. It’s as if the skin just peels off from around the areas of dryness. I’ve been doing this for years, and for years I’ve been telling myself I shouldn’t be doing this at all. I can’t help it. When I’m bored, when I’m nervous, when I should be doing other things, I pick my skin. I know that eventually, if it hasn’t already altered my long term skin growth, this habit will destroy me.

My sister has a fucked up thumbnail. Like alien-esque, messed up. She’d probably be pissed at this description, but it’s true, her thumbnail is a phenomena to me. It’s all warped. I think it’s from the picking and even though I don’t want a thumbnail like that, I still can’t stop my habit.

A couple of my fingers are aching now. Aching - because in the time I’ve been typing this update, I’ve also been taking the time to pick my skin.

It’s as if I’m addicted. Maybe I just need some lotion. In fact, lotion would be the best place to start to nip this addiction in the bud.

Lubrication. One of the most important elements of life, and sex, and good finger maintenance.

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10 Responses to “Finger-Biter”

  1. jacob Says:

    I never noticed anything. Perhaps you do it only when alone.
    btw, poker chez moi tonight

  2. jacob Says:

    I never noticed anything. Perhaps you do it only when alone.
    btw, poker chez moi tonight

  3. lauren Says:


  4. Karen Says:

    LOL. Lubrication…the essence of life. And sex.
    Lets see, we are alike because…
    We both live in large metropolitan areas, I’m in a suburb of Los Angeles, I live in Quartz Hill, Ca.
    I too am amazed by touristy locals which charge exhorbitant amounts.
    We both stay up late in order to sleep till a normal hour in the morning.
    I’m a bit older than you though, I am 38.
    Your whole entry about seeing crazy shit during the past week intrigued me, as I have had the same weird phenomena recently. I’m not crazy either!
    I am also pro-choice. My 14 year old and I had a discussion about that today. She has to write an essay for school. Men should have no say in it whatsoever and should not be allowed an opinion on it either. I guess at 30 I was just beginning to become a woman. Even though I was married and already had 3 children (I now have 4), I was just learning about who I was. Somehow that comes through your blog to me.
    I have an online journal as well at xanga.com. Flaminredhead is my journal name. If you ever get the chance, stop by. If not, it has been nice reading yours and saying hello to someone new.

  5. craig Says:

    heh heh…if you put little underscores around it, like this, Lauren…


    …it looks a little *frostier*….(*grin*)

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