July 07, 2021

The Gym

I started a health plan over a month ago. It's one of these plans that gets progressively more (and less) healthy as time goes by. I gave up eating wheat, in the form of bread, because of my thyroid condition - apparently wheat is something hard for my body to process, and with that I gave up one of the ultimate delicacies...CHEESE. I have had a bite or two of some foods baked with cheese in the past four weeks, but considering I was eating some form of bread or cheese with every meal, these concessions have been major accomplishments.

Now I'm starting the physical part of my health kick. So the other day I went to look at a gym in my neighborhood to see about joining. I was all excited about rejoining a gym, because I was one of those constantly and consistently work out every morning type of people for a whole bunch of years. I thought that that was the routine I was ready to recommitt myself to, only, after touring the facilities, I left with a heavy heart. And I'm not sure that I want to join a gym. I'm not sure that I want to go back to the same type of routine that I once had, which leads me back to some of my other same patterns. And that fucks my shit up. Because the gym is the only place I know that I am guaranteed to sweat. I realized that no matter what I decide to do, I need to exercise in a place with windows and light, because the lack of both makes me less ambitious and eager. I want to do more yoga, but I still think I need to find a good cardio exercise as well.I've decided that, until I make my next move, I need to do physical activity on a daily basis. I walked to work, over the Williamsburg bridge, the past two mornings. I did sit ups the past two evenings and push ups as soon as the alarm went off today and yesterday.

I've been having a number of body image issue types of days. But a birthday boy gave me some good advice today. He told me if I feel insecure, and other people see me struggling with how I look, then they will see me as how I feel. So I should buck up, and feel beautiful.

I liked that advice, so I'm getting over my issues.

Plus, I got my ticket to Burning Man today. And that makes me happy.

Posted by jamye at July 7, 2021 04:04 PM