May 31, 2021

Patterns and Paris

What does a therapist do? I mean I know what a therapist does, but what does a therapist do for you? I ask because I'm thinking of going to one for the first time. My mother has thought I needed one my whole life, but I have a specific reason for thinking I need to go to one. I think it's better to have a specific reason than a general I don't like my life or why do I feel blah sort of thing. I think I just need someone to talk to, to help me sort out my feelings. I think this is what a therapist does.

I might need a therapist because I can actually see my patterns. It's amazing when you take the time and look at yourself, how much shit is often revealed. I am 30 and I'm still trying to figure out my basic functioning. My basic beliefs. Who I am vs. who I was supposed to grow up to become. Expectations. Things like that.

And...I pick fights. Often and easily. I don't mean to, it's just one of those inherrent patterns.

Then of course there's the travel pattern. The one where I'm constantly getting on a plane and going somewhere. But I am excited for tomorrow, as it's back to New Mexico for my friends' wedding.

Speaking of weddings...

Paris Hilton is getting married. Why is this news? And why, when I've never mentioned her before, did I all of a sudden get that itchy urge to mention her now. We are a society obsessed with celebrity. Why?

Posted by jamye at May 31, 2021 12:25 PM