The things you do for love.
I'm not feeling so hot right now. I'm trying that master cleanse fast again. It's not that I'm doing it for Jonny, it's just that I wouldn't be doing it if he wasn't doing it. And since he's doing it, and since we live together, and I can't imagine not sharing something like this with him, I'm doing it AGAIN. Yes, again, as in I did this last year and remembered thinking at the end of last year, thank goddess it's over, cause I don't want to go through this again.
Maybe I thought we'd be over by the time it got around to April again. But, really, I don't think I thought that, but who knows, maybe I did. But no, we're still together, and not it's April, and I've kept pushing him back so we could find the ideal time to stop eating, although there's never really an ideal time to stop eating, is there?
I crave french toast. It might have more than something to do with the fact that I'm drinking maple syrup, yes maple syrup is one of the four staples in the master cleanse (The other three are water, lemon and cayenne pepper). It doesn't help that all I want to do is grab a handful of almonds and devour each tiny nut in my mouth. Or that I have both my period and a headache right now. No, none of this is making my master cleanse experience happy. And it's not helping that everywhere I turn I see some sort of advertisement for food. I'm noticing just how much food is served in New York on a more hyper sensitive level. Perhaps it has to do with the fact that I AM HYPERSENSITIVE right now.
So, why do it? Well, since I'm not doing it for, just with, Jonny, there has to be some other logical explanation, right? Right.
I'm spring cleaning out my body, mind and soul. That's really what it comes down to. Getting rid of some of that winter heaviness and hoping that it lends itself to a light and easy spring and summer. And especially since I "chowed down, wide load", these past few days, it's getting my body back on track to perform at it's peak. Plus, I'm hoping it helps clear up my ear thing, which is still quite the common concern in my life.
So, even though I wouldn't do this without Jonny, I guess it doesn't hurt to be doing it with him. After all, it's nice to share.
Posted by jamye at April 19, 2021 07:24 PM