February 27, 2021

Not for the Faint of Heart

Me. Not sad. Just dramatic.

Well, before I get there, please go check out my interview with sex educator, tantrika, spiritual explorer and all around amazing woman Barbara Carrellas. It's up now on Souldish.com. And I must say, it was one of the most enlightening conversations I've ever had about sex.

Now, I've been a very bad, bad girl. Neglecting certain things while spending way too much time thinking about other things instead. I can't believe how long it's been since I've typed words on this page. Maybe not long for most people, but when you have OCD (like I do) a few days might as well be a few months.

So, today, I've decided to confess something more. That's all I'm going to do. And this blog isn't for the faint at heart. *I'm serious..this is totally too much information about my sexuality *that's a clause for parents and other blood relations who might not want to read sexual content about their daughter/sister/cousin/neice and I don't want to be responsible for how you might feel about me after you read my thoughts, so turn away now if you might even care a little bit too much.

Okay. That's all the warning I give.

In bed this morning I came to this conclusion:

I'm totally average when it comes to sex. It takes me about twenty minutes to orgasm. I need clitoral stimulation more than I need vaginal penetration, and rarely do I orgasm from vaginal penetration alone. I like vibrators. Except for the occasional squirt, there's nothing exceptional about me sexually. And while I know that's good and plenty, I'm still wishing I could do something more with my vagina. Like shoot ping pong balls out of it. I've always envied woman who can do that.

I know how to strengthen my muscles. I know how to do kegel exercises. And I do them, and yet I've never been able to shoot anything out of my pussy. It's not that I don't love my vulva, because I do, it's just that I don't have one of those pussies that sings or dances or performs circus tricks. And sometimes, as a sex educator, I wish I did.

Confession over.

Posted by jamye at February 27, 2021 03:50 PM